Sunday, February 05, 2006
Milk Drunk
I cannot get over how much I love this child. I truly think I’ve found what life is all about. When Ryan pulls off my boob, smiles her “milk drunk” smile, and dribbles milk out of the side of her mouth-I melt. She is already such an amazing tiny little person. I am so loving getting to know her.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Visit to Children's Seattle
Dr. Stamm @ Childrens. Her first trip to Uvillage and Starbucks. Ryan is going to be fine, basically she has a valve that didn't close all the way, and it's something that about 50% of babies close on their own, and the other half it's too small to really worry about. To be certain, we will have to take her back in 3 months for another echo-cardiogram and make sure it's either not getting worse, or is getting better. Thank God there was no mention of surgery or even treatment, cause I probably would have passed out! As it was, Ryan did awesome! She was so good while the tech did the ultrasound, hardly fussed at all. And on the way home, I stopped to get a nursing bra -- 34H!! OMG, I'm a porn star!
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Trip to ER with RE...v. scary
2.1.2006
ER @ Childrens, my milk came in.
So, we all went to my post-partum care visit and all was well until the nurse checked Ryan's heartbeat. She heard a heart murmur and pretty much sent us straight over to the pediatrician. The ped heard it too, and sent us straight over to Children's hospital in Seattle. By now I'm completely freaking out and panicking that I have to take my three day old baby to the freaking ER at Childrens. Once we got there (we stopped to pick up my mom and some more stuff, we only thought we'd be out 2 hours), she was checked out by 2 nurses, 3 doctors, a cardiologist and a resident. All agreed that she definitely has a heart murmur and the cardiologist wants to check it out further. So tomorrow we are taking her back to Children's so they can do an ultrasound on her heart and make sure it's something that won't require surgery. They think it's something that will close up on it's own, but to be safe, they want a closer look. I have calmed down a ton, but I am completely freaking out still. I don't want to put the baby down at all (poor daddy has barely gotten to hold her today). I just can't believe that there is something wrong with my perfect little thing. I feel like I've done everything so "right" that it's not fair that something should go wrong with her...it's a terrible feeling. I've spent most of the day crying and I finally crashed out and slept for like 3 hours (the most I've gotten all day). Not to mention, on top of all this, my milk came in today, so poor Ryan's whole feeding thing has been all crazy, plus all the car trips and the poking and prodding and undressing at all the dr.s...long day.
ER @ Childrens, my milk came in.
So, we all went to my post-partum care visit and all was well until the nurse checked Ryan's heartbeat. She heard a heart murmur and pretty much sent us straight over to the pediatrician. The ped heard it too, and sent us straight over to Children's hospital in Seattle. By now I'm completely freaking out and panicking that I have to take my three day old baby to the freaking ER at Childrens. Once we got there (we stopped to pick up my mom and some more stuff, we only thought we'd be out 2 hours), she was checked out by 2 nurses, 3 doctors, a cardiologist and a resident. All agreed that she definitely has a heart murmur and the cardiologist wants to check it out further. So tomorrow we are taking her back to Children's so they can do an ultrasound on her heart and make sure it's something that won't require surgery. They think it's something that will close up on it's own, but to be safe, they want a closer look. I have calmed down a ton, but I am completely freaking out still. I don't want to put the baby down at all (poor daddy has barely gotten to hold her today). I just can't believe that there is something wrong with my perfect little thing. I feel like I've done everything so "right" that it's not fair that something should go wrong with her...it's a terrible feeling. I've spent most of the day crying and I finally crashed out and slept for like 3 hours (the most I've gotten all day). Not to mention, on top of all this, my milk came in today, so poor Ryan's whole feeding thing has been all crazy, plus all the car trips and the poking and prodding and undressing at all the dr.s...long day.
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